Not enough time...

in the day! wow...it's almost the end of Spring Break and I have basically gotten nothing done. There should be at least two or three more hours in the day lol! Won't know anything about the house until at least Tuesday so I have the whole weekend to stress...and I'm still checking out the paper each day. If this one doesn't work out we need something. I know we have both talked about getting a house and both agreed about wanting one but today we really talked about it and agreed that we are ready to be in a house. Since getting married we have always been stuck in an apartment. It wasn't a bad thing when I worked on the property where we lived beause of the huge discount and advantage of just walking to work. The Shane went to basic training and deployed so it was silly for me to be in a house by myself. Now that he's home and everything we need more space. Plus we both really fell in love with the house we looked at yesterday...omg I hope it works out!!! *yawn*...should probably go to bed early tonight...taking Muffins to get groomed in the morning. She isn't thrilled and has been trying to suck up all night in hopes I will change my mind. Not going to happen!! She has knots in her hair that I simply cannot get out. Poor baby is getting shaved tomorrow! I'm so gonna cry! Anyways, going to watch the 10 o'clock news and weather with Ed and off to bed!!! Hopefully the storms don't get too severe tonight.

Finally!

OMG we found a house!!! BUT.....one slight problem...there always is when it comes to something concerning us. There is always something that could (and does) go wrong. Anyways, found the perfect house that is in our price range and available May 1st...but the girl also still has it listed for sale. She said it's been listed for almost a year now and has to be listed until May 1st. So we can put down our deposit and everything but if it sells anytime in April even on the 30th...the day before we move it...it would be sold out from under us. Yeah, we would get our deposit back but we wouldn't have a place to live because we would put in our 30 day notice here at the apartments. *sigh*...perfect house so of course something has to get in the way. We have been looking since the end of January. The girl is going to call her realtor tomorrow to see if it can be taken off the market and if so we will be good to go. Will be doing lots of extra praying tonight. I really like the location and the house and everything...it will be a great place for us to start our family and really have a home instead of being cramped up in this tiny apartment. If this doesn't work out it's back to nonstop searching...Keep your fingers (and toes lol) crossed for us!

Spring Break!

It's finally Spring Break!!! yay!! but I have so much housework to do that I don't really get any rest. A month of wearing a cast really put me behind in everything. Hubby and I have been fighting alot lately...and I know I'm the one picking the fights but I'm so stressed out and on edge and I really don't mean to. We have been looking for a house for a couple of months now and still nothing. Sure, we found a few that were the right size and price range but one wasn't in a really good location and the other was filthy (and the landlord said it was rent ready...yuck!!!). I can also tell I'm still struggling to put the miscarriage behind me. I'm terrified to try again and to the point that I don't want sex at all...all of this is extremely frustrating for my poor husband. Well...I really should get back to laundry and house hunting. There's a nasty storm moving in and I want to get my contacts in and shower before it hits. Will post again later!!!!!!

Busy Busy!

I had a few minutes so I decided to go ahead and blog a little. It's slightly complicated to type with a cast on my arm but I'm getting pretty good at doing things one handed. We have spent the entire weekend looking for rent houses in the area and have had no luck. Our apartment is way too small plus I'm tired of loud neighbors and dogs that bark constantly. We have a little while to find something but the sooner the better!The new jobs are going great and we hope to file our taxes soon. Taxes would have been filed Friday except I'm still having trouble with one of the management companies I worked for. They had my SSN wrong on the W-2 and its been a huge hassle to get them to correct it. Well, typing is alot harder than I thought so its back to laundry and resting for me, and house hunting! :)

It's Been Awhile...

and needless to say...alot has happened. I used this as my outlet for what I couldn't talk to anyone else about or simply just needed to "talk". In December my wonderful husband came home from Iraq, best Christmas gift ever. Hrmmm...that's catches you up to present time lol.


I've experienced alot this past week...two weeks. Like I mentioned, hubby came home just a month ago and like usual (Warning TMI) it was the first day of that time of the month. Well, last weekend we discovered we were pregnant (absolutley thrilled!!) then four short days later we weren't. Yeah...my joy was short lived. And very devastating. I'm just now out of the bed and feeling "normal" again...well, as normal as I was to begin with. I'm finally able to smile, to get through the day without breaking down when those commercials come on (the remote was constantly in my hand so I could escape the baby commercials), I'm finally able to go spend time with my niece and laugh again instead of thinking of what could have been. I gave myself about a week, now its time to pick up the pieces and keep going. We want a baby, to get our little family started. But this actually took us by surprise that it happened so quickly and I know deep down that everything happens for a reason and that it just wasn't the right time. It will happen when it's supposed to.


Throughout all of this I discovered just how supportive my family can be, especially my sister. I also found out which friends really are true friends, the ones worth keeping around and the ones it's time to let go of. People I've met once have been a better friend than some I've known for years. But that's just how things happen, people come and go. I also have a friend on the military spouse support network that is going through the same thing, almost at the same time. Sharing the news and information and loss with her is helping me alot, I just hate she is having to experience this because I know it's hard.

I'm excited to start my new job on Monday...one reason I'm up so late tonight, gotta get it out of my system. :) I actually was supposed to start the job this week but thankfully the staff has been understanding with my situation. I'm also hoping to start taking some online courses and getting myself back in school.

I'm fully aware that not many, if any at all, read my blog...but it's nice to "let it all out"... but it's late and my eyes are extrememly tired. More tomorrow...more as I'm able to cope with things and as new experiences take place.

Time to get Creative!

So....things are really tight this year so I'm looking into making several of my family member's Christmas gifts...besides, something made comes from the heart and has so much more meaning to it. I was able to get an awesome deal on a photobook from Snapfish.com and Shutterfly.com and just finished up my books. Because I'm pretty bad with some things, I found a wonderful military spouse from my favorite website that is makine a blanket for my hubby. I am so thankful I found her! Now if I could just think of other things I could do for everyone. Oh well....*yawn*...I need sleep so I'll continue this later!

Just wanna scream!!!

Frustrated does not even come close to how I'm feeling...that and sleepy but that doesn't matter right now. We moved back to AR in May...and I have YET to find a job...WTH! Ok, I know times are hard right now and I read every day about hundreds of ppl filing unemployment every week but come on!! I lost my job on a completely unfair bases and now I can't find anything. I haven't been extrememly worried about it just yet but after 6 months I'm really starting to get worried and majorly stressed out. We need the income, I know I'm good at what I can do...I'm not even seeking "top dollar" pay...or even benefits...but I can't find anything. I'm especially upset because it's almost December and if I was still working at my old job I would be attending the Christmas Party soon when they give out all the awards...an award in Collections that I worked my @$$ off for an entire year just to be let go so some cute flirty guy could steal my job. I wasted two years working to my best potential, exceling and being so darn proud of myself because finally, FINALLY I was good (great) at something...and all for nothing! Now I sit home or at my sister's every day...that or I sleep the days away...bored and stressed and doing nothing to contribute to my family. What a total let down I must be to my awesome husband...Yes I'm venting but I don't care...no one reads my blog anyways. I just don't understand...how am I so pathetic that I can't find employment..... *cry*