Busy Busy!

I had a few minutes so I decided to go ahead and blog a little. It's slightly complicated to type with a cast on my arm but I'm getting pretty good at doing things one handed. We have spent the entire weekend looking for rent houses in the area and have had no luck. Our apartment is way too small plus I'm tired of loud neighbors and dogs that bark constantly. We have a little while to find something but the sooner the better!The new jobs are going great and we hope to file our taxes soon. Taxes would have been filed Friday except I'm still having trouble with one of the management companies I worked for. They had my SSN wrong on the W-2 and its been a huge hassle to get them to correct it. Well, typing is alot harder than I thought so its back to laundry and resting for me, and house hunting! :)

It's Been Awhile...

and needless to say...alot has happened. I used this as my outlet for what I couldn't talk to anyone else about or simply just needed to "talk". In December my wonderful husband came home from Iraq, best Christmas gift ever. Hrmmm...that's catches you up to present time lol.


I've experienced alot this past week...two weeks. Like I mentioned, hubby came home just a month ago and like usual (Warning TMI) it was the first day of that time of the month. Well, last weekend we discovered we were pregnant (absolutley thrilled!!) then four short days later we weren't. Yeah...my joy was short lived. And very devastating. I'm just now out of the bed and feeling "normal" again...well, as normal as I was to begin with. I'm finally able to smile, to get through the day without breaking down when those commercials come on (the remote was constantly in my hand so I could escape the baby commercials), I'm finally able to go spend time with my niece and laugh again instead of thinking of what could have been. I gave myself about a week, now its time to pick up the pieces and keep going. We want a baby, to get our little family started. But this actually took us by surprise that it happened so quickly and I know deep down that everything happens for a reason and that it just wasn't the right time. It will happen when it's supposed to.


Throughout all of this I discovered just how supportive my family can be, especially my sister. I also found out which friends really are true friends, the ones worth keeping around and the ones it's time to let go of. People I've met once have been a better friend than some I've known for years. But that's just how things happen, people come and go. I also have a friend on the military spouse support network that is going through the same thing, almost at the same time. Sharing the news and information and loss with her is helping me alot, I just hate she is having to experience this because I know it's hard.

I'm excited to start my new job on Monday...one reason I'm up so late tonight, gotta get it out of my system. :) I actually was supposed to start the job this week but thankfully the staff has been understanding with my situation. I'm also hoping to start taking some online courses and getting myself back in school.

I'm fully aware that not many, if any at all, read my blog...but it's nice to "let it all out"... but it's late and my eyes are extrememly tired. More tomorrow...more as I'm able to cope with things and as new experiences take place.

Time to get Creative!

So....things are really tight this year so I'm looking into making several of my family member's Christmas gifts...besides, something made comes from the heart and has so much more meaning to it. I was able to get an awesome deal on a photobook from Snapfish.com and Shutterfly.com and just finished up my books. Because I'm pretty bad with some things, I found a wonderful military spouse from my favorite website that is makine a blanket for my hubby. I am so thankful I found her! Now if I could just think of other things I could do for everyone. Oh well....*yawn*...I need sleep so I'll continue this later!

Just wanna scream!!!

Frustrated does not even come close to how I'm feeling...that and sleepy but that doesn't matter right now. We moved back to AR in May...and I have YET to find a job...WTH! Ok, I know times are hard right now and I read every day about hundreds of ppl filing unemployment every week but come on!! I lost my job on a completely unfair bases and now I can't find anything. I haven't been extrememly worried about it just yet but after 6 months I'm really starting to get worried and majorly stressed out. We need the income, I know I'm good at what I can do...I'm not even seeking "top dollar" pay...or even benefits...but I can't find anything. I'm especially upset because it's almost December and if I was still working at my old job I would be attending the Christmas Party soon when they give out all the awards...an award in Collections that I worked my @$$ off for an entire year just to be let go so some cute flirty guy could steal my job. I wasted two years working to my best potential, exceling and being so darn proud of myself because finally, FINALLY I was good (great) at something...and all for nothing! Now I sit home or at my sister's every day...that or I sleep the days away...bored and stressed and doing nothing to contribute to my family. What a total let down I must be to my awesome husband...Yes I'm venting but I don't care...no one reads my blog anyways. I just don't understand...how am I so pathetic that I can't find employment..... *cry*

Sick...

I hate being sick...especially when I have so much to do. I've had a pretty great week, got to talk to both my brother and awesome husband this week!!! Now if I could just get better. I need to clean my apartment, put up fall decorations and get all my Christmas decor out. Plus I need to rearrange, wash alot of laundry, etc. I'm so glad the holidays are finally here, now if I could just get ready for them. :) Oh well, I thought since I was awake for a few I would post. I've been in a gloomy mood all day, woke up long enough to eat some soup and now I'm going back to bed as long as my neighbors will stop slamming doors. Third picture frame knocked off the wall and broken by them tonight...it's getting really old and I can't wait to move!! Anyways, more cold medicine and back to bed. Maybe tomorrow will be a more productive day.

YaY!!!

I am super excited tonight!!! Granted, it's hard to be excited when I feel so horrible but I still am. My reason?? I finally found someone that makes hand-tied fleece blankets!!!!!! Ok, I know...all I have to do is get the instructions off the internet and make it myself...believe me when I say I am not artsy crafty at all. Nor do I have the patience or the time. I found one on ebay that I really liked but missed out on the bidding and I really want one for my hubby for Christmas. He gets so cold and I thought it would be the perfect welcome home gift. Anyways, after emailing everyone I know that is super talented at making things and searching my military spouse forum I found the sweetest lady ever that said she would make one for me!! I almost cried I was so happy when I got her response!! It's the little things that count so much and it's so refreshing to know there really are still kind caring people out there in this crazy world. Now I get to pick out some fabric....more blogging later!!! Just wanted to share my happiness!

A Total Waste....

Yep...my Monday was a total waste. The long list of things I needed to do today is still sitting on the kitchen counter...not one of the important "to do" items marked off. I have got to find the energy to get things done. I slept all day...and I mean ALL day....Between not feeling good and horrible neighbors I haven't gotten much sleep and now I'm missing out on precious "business" hours to actually get things done.

I am going to bed early tonight...the cat has already been asleep for two hours so I'm just going to move her to her side of the bed and crash. I have lots to do tomorrow...in the rain...blah!!